On my mind...

I have lots on my mind as I prepare for baby girl #2. The main thing right now is about the delivery of this child. My first labor with Chloe was just fine really. The laboring for 32 hrs, pushing for 2.5 of those was hard, no doubt. But that combined with the c-section that followed was taxing beyond belief on my body. It took a LONG 6 weeks (at the least) to physically recover. So, now I am here in a different medical community (Nebraska) where I have the choice to have an elective c-section or try for a VBAC.  There is actually a piece of paper to sign saying VBAC or c-section that you have to sign prior to delivery. I am having a LOT of back and forth feelings about this. There is no guarantee that I won't have a similar experience if I try for a VBAC...no thanks...and yet the recovery from a c-section is tough on its own. Chloe was posterior (face up) and just couldn't get out. What is wonderful is that I have an great mid-wife who is for us no matter what we ultimately choose. She has a lot of positive energy toward me trying to VBAC (since I dilated fully the last time), but acknowledges that I have some post-tramatic stress due to my first experience and recovery. I could really use some wisdom and prayer about this. I feel confident that either choice would be OK and that God would take care of me, I just want to be wise. I know that either way the outcome that we desire is a healthy baby and mom. I would love to hear any experiences you might have. I know this can be a heated topic, so if you don't want to post on the blog, please email me. {jenni@amazed.com}