Tuesday, November 15, 2005
I was telling someone a story tonight about a painful time in my life. I was expressing my hurt in a way that felt disconnected and distant from the pain I actually felt at the time. I'm thankful that time heals, but at the same time I don't want to forget what I learned, what loving and losing feels like. The wounds are something that I carry even though there has been a lot of healing there are still scars. My friend asked me if I felt that I would have a hard time trusting again. I want to believe that I won't. I want to think I'm strong enough to not let the scars hurt. They hurt right now. I'm dependent on Christ, He is all I have.