Saturday, July 21, 2007
This was written on July 18th… I’ve been reminded lately of the care and love of the Lord. One year ago today I lost my mother-in-law to cancer. It was also a year ago today that my then future husband told me he loved me for the first time. A year later, we are grieving the loss of and remembering our beautiful Diane. Also, today Brent is leaving his ministry position that he’s been in for 16 years. Just a few hours ago, I heard words of life, of truth, of thankfulness and gratitude spoken to him from his co-workers. It made my heart swell and tears flowed. Love and Loss, joy and pain they are intermingled. Why? I often ask myself this question. I find myself overwhelmed by the timing of all of these things. A month ago, my brother-in-law lost his mother in a tragic car accident. The same week he met his birth mother who told him of all things that he was spared from because he was given up for adoption. He learned that the same year his birth mother became a believer and begin to pray for him, he became a follower of Christ. That evidentially led to his adoptive mother becoming a follower too. Is there always a redemptive theme going on and sometimes we aren’t aware of it? Or is the Lord just so kind that he knows that in the midst of pain and loss we need to be reminded of His goodness and how he loves us in the midst of it all. Could it be that the Lord offers relief for us when we are hurting? I think that is in His character. I know I’ve experienced that this year more intensely than ever before in my life. As I write this, I feel both loss and love…and it is beautiful.