Thursday, February 05, 2009
Lessons through creativity
Yesterday I had a TON of creative energy. I have had ideas for all sorts of things for the last couple of weeks. I had some time yesterday and pulled out the sewing machine. I think the last time I blogged about sewing I whined about it being in need of repair. I was really determined to try and see if I could see what the problem was, fix it, and start my sewing projects. The machine was doing the same thing (the top thread was just looping too many times and left a mess on the underside of the fabric). My poor hubby was working from home and heard all of my verbal frustrations...."why am I being thwarted in my creativity?, I just want to sew something!, No, not again!" You get the idea. My hubby came out made sure I was okay asked if he could help. I was not wanting help, I had done all that was to be done and things were still not working perfectly. He slowly walked back to his office. I was unstoppable in wanting to create something. I wanted to have something to show for energy within, the time spent fiddling with the silly machine. I kept going knowing that the product would have flaws, knowing I could have completed much more with a functional tool. I did complete the 2 things that I had wanted to make for our sweet baby girl. I think they are sweet and she will enjoy playing with them. I just don't like that the positive creative energy that started the whole process turned negative when things did not work right. I think it is fair to say that I feel that a lot in life as well. I feel really positive toward ____ and when things don't seem to be going according to plan, if there is proverbial repair that needs to be made I get discouraged, negative thinking creeps in, I don't believe the best about myself and others. I really need God's help in this area of my life. I need to be willing to ask for help. I need to quit sometimes, to step back to get things 'repaired' to yield a better end result. On a practical level, I will be taking the sewing machine to get repaired soon.