Thursday, April 21, 2011
Embracing the waves
For as long as I can remember I have LOVED my hair. I loved the ease of it: pin-straight, not having to wash it for days. It was the thing I most consistently got complimented on. "You have beautiful hair", "You should be a hair model", "Can I touch/play with your hair". I Loved it: long, short and in between. It was straight and thick, like a smooth blanket. That was until about 2 years ago. I noticed a slight wave when I turned 30, but it was easily blown out with a hair dryer. Then the pregnancy hormones came and along with a beautiful little girl came wavy hair. I kept my hair short for the first year and just dried it and straightened it. It worked okay. I loved my long hair and the ease of it, so I decided to grow it longer. The waves took over. I have had to learn how to do my hair all over again. I am still not sure how to do it, how to have it cut, etc... Last night I had some free time and decided to straighten it and I realized that for the last 1 1/2 or more years I haven't quite felt like 'myself' with wavy hair. My self confidence has even gone down b/c people rarely compliment me anymore. Brent said he has really liked the wavy hair and it was strange to see me with straight hair (so sweet). I want to embrace the changes that come with seasons in life (even physical ones). Heck, pregnancy cured me of my IBS! I also want to feel comfortable in my own skin. I want to be able to be comfortable with both wavy and straight haired Jenni. It may seem trivial but this revelation has helped me understand a lot about why I don't feel pretty most days. I want my feelings of beauty to come from the inside more than anything. This is what I am wrestling with now.