Sunday, April 10, 2011
Today I am lonely. Lonely for heart friends. I really miss being able to talk (uninterrupted) with my closest friends. I am enjoying getting to know those here in town now, but it takes time. I understand that, I don't feel the pressure to make relationships happen. The reality is that my heart is in need. I have been thinking about the blessing of all my years of being single. How I could just go sit on a girlfriends couch and pour out my heart and stay there for hours. It was such a sweet, sweet time. I love sharing my life like that with my husband, who is an amazing listener and encourager. But, there is something about a girlfriend, you know? I KNOW I am not alone in this. I am just praying that God would sustain me, give me moments of connection with those I am able to call and talk to, or those God has put around my life. I feel such gratitude that I even am feeling this heart-sickness. That means that God has allowed my heart to go deep with people. I want to TRUST that He is at work in all of this. I just want to say to all of those of you that I can't call everyday, that I long to come sit on your couch, talk and listen. I miss you, a lot.